im tired.. really tired.. mentally and physically.. i jus need someone to lean on, to share my problems with, etc etc,,...
sat working, my feeling got better cos no use keep thinking.. was trying to be happier alrr.. working halfway thru, i saw a msg from my sis.. saying.. father admitted to hospital.. the feeling was blur! shocked! after look at the msg, tears gather in my eyes.. i was really blur.. dunno wat to do.. after that i tried to calm down, and start calling my sis and mum.. they dint answer.. worried! only have to wait for their calls.. den my sis called back.. my dad is fine.. but have to stay at the hospital.. called my dad and ask how's he.. he say he almost fainted, due to some nerves in the brain burst.. he cant afford to fall down.. if so, he would be paralyse..
wat a "NICE" holiday i had.. hmmm.. today wake up alrr 8 o clock and my lesson start at 9.. prepared and went to take bus 45.. actually was meeting wanlin to skool, as bus 45 also got pass by her hse.. but in the end she came down too late and my bus pass alrr.. reached skool, alrr lunch time.. saw alot of familiar faces.. no HIM..
skool finished, elindaBF wana eat her lunch at cafe one.. so weishan, annie and me acc her to cafe one.. others went home.. when we reaching cafe, elinda : ehh.. ceesvin.. i was like.. oh ok.. after few seconds, she say : ehh! yongcheng.. i saw him, he was sitting with ceesvin and he also turn around, saw us.. the feeling was OH MY GOD.. i dint expect to see him, and i told them i wanna go home.. they were shocked.. but i went to the toilet and calm down.. so we jus sit at the other tables.. far away from him.. den ceesvin ask me to go over his table.. i looked, HE was not there alrr.. he sit another table with his other frens.. so i go over and talk to ceesvin awhile.. talking halfway, HE stand behind me and say hi to me.. i kinda act dao.. he stand behind me and say: wow change new phone ar.. i dint answer him.. carry on toking to ceesvin.. den HE went to buy dessert.. i walk pass him and say bye bye to HIM, and find back annie they all.. our converstion not more than 5 sentences? hmm..
went home with elindaBF and annieDear.. almost over shot cos dear and me were sleeping.. i *DU* *DU* *DU* tired! reached home take an hour nap and off to visit my dad alone.. i feel that im not a small kid anymore.. its time for me to take care of my dad alrr.. feeling EMO.. real emo.. after visit my dad, im so emo! i sat at the enterance and keep looking at those taxi pass by.. DAZED.. for about 45mins? i jus sit down there do nothing.. maybe im jus letting my brain to rest and im so tired.. hmmm.. den headed back to find wilfred and i on my mp3 to tui hou.. on the mrt, i finally cried... DOTS.. the mrt was so crowded and so embarrassing.. haix.. i cant take it anymore? i dunno.. BOO.. sadded! i bear wit it for so long alrr.. more and more things for me to face it le!..
