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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

when u cant express out ur feeling, write it down and show it out everything. =]

fri 23th feb- went to my BF, elinda's hse. weee. love my BF lots la. lol. went her hse for steamboat, its SUPER FULL lorr. finished, blackjack time. bored alrr, we start to take NONSENSE pics. LOL. too er xin to post out liao. haha. around 8 plus went back amk.


sat 24th feb- working whole day. at night went boat quay. went with wilfred and pui ben. open chivas. half way, yumei came. finished the chivas, went to find chan meng they all [ coslab ppl ]. they are mad. LOL. before we go find them, they left half bottle. finished tat bottle, within 1 hour an half hour, they open 4 bottles [one bottle is free]. all drunk. LOL. 5 plus reached home.


sun 25th feb- went to work, 1/4 blur. really blur. went to work, vomited. acid out too. yucks! after work went k pool. actually meeting him, but end up im controlling myself not to. saw chan meng and his frens at k pool too. play with chan meng. den slack around with yumei, chan meng and wei lie. around 4 plus went home. reached home, im stuck outside. so i went to find him. cos he at mac studying for his friday exam. i saw him writing some notes, so i lean on table slp. around 20 mins, i saw him stil writing. but his eyes is red! watery! ??!! blurr. snatch his "note" and see. its those feeling he wanna say. return him and he continue write. acc him until 7 plus, went home.


my xiao xue peng you. chan meng.

mon 26th feb- i sleep all the way until 7 plus. is damn tiring cos sat play, not enough sleep and went to work. not intend to go out and many of my frens calls and msgs. den my daddy call. half awake, pick up his call and he said: peng, wan to go " he jui " [drink beer]. me: huh?! i was shocked and totally awake. den he said is those dinner [ jia tou ], i totally forget the meaning cos from small, my dad's he jui is = to dinner. and past few week i have been drinking lots. late for one hour, but reached there is only the second dish! SHARK FINS! MY BREAKFAST OF THE DAY~ WeEEeeEe.. princess huh? LOL. lame me. dinner finished, went to meet him. den find yumei, liwei, weilong. awhile den went to yumei's house eat steamboat. slack at her hse den movie time. sleep at her hse.

tue 27th feb- woke up went home get change went to SENTOSA~~ haha. with yumei, weishan and liwei. went there sun tan [ i dun like it at all but acc them lorr. ] swim abit den wash up. went back amk. play pool awhile den slack at 700. he came to find me. im tired and he send me home~






lonely? plain?




me and weishan


we are sad cos she's dead. LMAO.



liwei and me.


three of us.


again us~

diff brands. guess which one is mine?

wed 28th feb- i WENT TO SKOOL! LOL. my class advisor misses me alot and i MISS MY H8. LOL. went to eat at cafe one and i saw derrick. he say he will talk to me 1st if he saw me again. he LIED. LOL. den went home. sleep. was soooo tiring. and im now blogging. later going to play mahjong~ wish me luck uh. hehe!



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pingg
9:45 PM




Friday, February 23, 2007

really got no time to update. use short cut! LOL.

friday 16 feb- meet him eat dinner. after that, he went cine, i went fei ying. play snooker. change place to k pool. went home.

sat 17 feb- work halfday. went to grandma house eat reunion dinner. wanted to go out, quarrel wit mum. at midnight meet him awhile. acc him eat dinner.

sunday 18 feb- new year! went to grandma house awhile. v bored. eat breakfast at there, slack awhile, went home. sleep, den went central find hanlin andrew with yumei. den went to weishan house. play blackjack. all went to boat quay except me. i meet up with him, and went down with him. thing happen happen~~~ hanlin's thing. him and ji zhong thing. blah blah~~ went to dunno where play number ball. i love it! bonus bonus~ haha. morning 8 plus reached home. tok on the phone with him and sleep. he's jealous about hanlin and wilfred so close to me.

monday 19 feb- slack until 5 plus meet him. wanted to make things clear with him. but nv. he went dinner, i went to hanlin's house gamble. having slight fever. 10 plus went to a pub, andrew asked us to go. 1 and half chivas for 6 ppl, another half keep for balance. 12 plus change place to boat quay. 1 chivas & 5 jug tiger beer for 3 ppl. vomited. 7 plus reached home.

tuesday 20 feb- sore throat, fever, flu & cough. nv go work. rest almost whole day. at night 9 plus went k pool. hanlin they all went boat quay again. dint follow. quite sick. but went k box with yumei wilfred and pui ben. pui ben and wilfred disturb me until i cried. again.. i bear wit "it" so long and finally let it out.

FUNNY thing! went toilet with yumei. cos i stomach ache and used the toilet for too long. two stranger tok to yumei saying im laying egg huh?. den i disturb back. i tot it was yumei's fren. den one of the stranger say : mus come out leh. i sure wait for u and see how u look like one. using friendly tone. den i say ok lorr. i went out. saw the "gal". she shake hand with me. asking can be frens with me? i look at yumei, tot yumei's fren, so i give my number as she asked for. so went back to our room, yumei told me she's NOT MY FREN. the "gal" is BUTCH. called herself, ryan. yumei suan me say: i tot u wan to be les? OMG~ LOL LOL LOL.

after k box. went to find him. wanted to settle clear with him. when saw him, every tot gone. talk halway, his attitude changed due to my phone keep ringing [ he's jealous ] so i told him i wanted go home. i walk away myself. he stay there. i msged him, take care. i tot two words can end everything. wrong! he walk behind me, calling me. stopped and listen wat he wanna say.

he said: there's alot i wanna say. wat about u? me: nothing to say since u dun wanna say. if dun wanna say there's no chance alrr. he: acc me go eat supper. went to our usual place, he had his supper. finished, he sent me home. dint intend to msg him anymore. instead he msged.

him: get a good sleep, drink more water. take good care of your health okay? MISSED YOU.
me: nothing else to say?
him: wat u wish me to say?
me: k. nvm.
him: you also got nothing else to say?
me: nothing. u still got ur gf. think for her pls.
him: dun say that. then you? you dun wan me alr?
me: dun think so much. continue with her. im not forcing u to do any decision.
him: i dunno wat to do.
me: carry on wit her.
him: so i now cannot leave you alone.
me: dun bother about me.
him: cant we stay as wad we were?
me: cannot. too close alr. u got gf.
him: so this is the thing tat bothers you. so the rest are not close to you?
me: they are my good fren. beside that they have no gf.
him: so im wat? a normal fren? or?
me: den wat u wan?
him: i dunno. just some one special.

fall asleep................

wednesday 21 feb- dint go skool. use com. so long nv use alr. ronnie came to tok to me at msn. we both decide to go watch movie. protege. [are you ppl shocked? LOL! ] went to amk hub eat dinner. went to bishan buy tickets for 1910. but selling fast. so we bought 2140. went back amk k pool. snooker and pool time. den movie time~ after movie. he msg me.

him: so you really wan me to take care.. you really wan it tis way? dint reply him: miss the days man.. dint reply. him: can reply? me: wat u wan me to say? him: wat u feeling now? me: nothing. him: ok lor. so you dun like me? dint reply.

went to boat quay wit ronnie to find hanlin, chee tiong, yet tat & yong teck. from xchange, change to ascostic. he called. he also at boat quay. i dint wan to have a chance to see him and i tot boat quay is far enough yet he so near me. meet him at the seven eleven. he drink alot. talk again. i see the sadness on his face, soft-hearted. but i got to be cruel. talk halfway, i left him alone. he keep calling me. msg me.

him: you are so heartless man
me: wat u wan me to do.
him: stay with me
me: you stil got ur gf to stay with u.
him: i love you
me: we dun suit.
him: that's wat u think..
dint reply..

thursday 22 feb- slack almost whole day on my bed! keep lying on bed until 9 pm plus. PIG? wake up eat dinner, carry on lie again. until now. wake up so update awhile. took me hours to updates.

i noe all this started is wrong. so im trying to stop everything going worst. thoughts for his gf not for me. so i decided for him, instead of asking him to make a decision. i understand how it feel when ur bf do this kind of thing behind u. so i choose to leave on my own. sorry..



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pingg
2:21 AM




Friday, February 16, 2007

wednesday 14 feb- ha! i spend the day at k pool. play snooker with vincent. and i win! hehe. dint reply his msg at the afternoon. cos dun wanna disturb him and his gf~ well around 2am plus. he msged me. sms halfway, we both fall asleep.

thursday 15 feb- early in da MORNING 730! he called. asking me to wake up and eat breakfast! DOTS! he thought my lesson start at 8 and ask me wake up. keep asking me acc him go eat breakfast, and he's out of his house alrr. still wanna come my hse look for me. but i was too lazy to go down. so he went home and we chat on the phone. around 9 plus, he went to sleep and me too~ woke up late, and eventually late for skool. the teacher very good, even if we reached 10 mins b4 the lesson ends, he still mark our attendance. LOL. bored in class.
peining's hand
at evening went shopping with wei shan. cool! went vivo. shopping SPREE~~ hehe. so happy. ages since i bought so many things.
.posed.
friday 16 feb- lalala~~ i dint go skool. pon skool! bad gal. also not the 1st time. oppS. hee. was very tired, called weishan up, asking me whether wanna go skool. so we both decide not to go. annie did msg me saying everyone not going to skool expect for irene. OMG? irene have to be alone?
tml is new year eve alrr! OMG. KINDA EXCITED! LOL. wahahhaa..



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pingg
2:12 PM




Wednesday, February 14, 2007

hmm.

12 feb mon- went to skool as usual. dint really listen in class. easily distracted by other things. well. after skool, weishan n me went to orchard to meet yunzhi. SHOPPING. everyone were tired, went back amk. went to k pool with weishan, yunzhi went home. on the same time, i was msging with him. he asking whether meeting him? he say he will be going hospital first. asking me wanna acc him? so went down bugis to find him. END UP, he think the visting time is over! so went back amk again. slack at mac, and we chat. real chatting and not suan. get to noe him more, and suddenly we heard the song, look wat you've done, and both emo. continue chat, did ask him about his gf thing. so and so..... he seems confused, or maybe not? after that, home sweet home~

13 feb tues- went to skool late, late for the CA test. was so confident in passing but now i dun think so. during lesson time, practices that teacher gave was much more easier, but exam? well~ thanks to teacher~ went home and get change, went to bugis with weishan, liwei and yumei. saw a jeans that i have been looking for, but the price can be found at cheaper price, so i dint buy. malay style~ LOL. went back to amk, play pool. my pool is getting lousy! boo! i was playing pool, and he called. he dint wan to put down the phone and keep saying im playing pool with guys. jealous? LOL.

after awhile, he came to me and ask where's darly. i was shocked. cos he dint told me he coming, but he noe im there. he play pool with yumei, wei zhang, chan meng. i dint play with them at all. i played with zhi xing and pui ben. he keep giving those face that, [ i got other guy, dun wan bother him alrr ]. stupid him. after pool, went to s 11. dint really talk much with him. we have about 10 ppl includes weizhang frens. so he sitted with them, i sat another table. was talking with vesper, den weizhang all, including him, said that vesper is my bf. DOTS. he keep saying pui ben is my bf too. sadded. but most important part is. this few weeks, my eyes get swollen easily, and i will keep rubbing non stop. at s 11 i also keep rubbing it, den i recieved a msg, from him. asking me not to rub my eyes. SITTED SO NEAR AND HE MSG ME. [ i noe why he will sms me instead of telling me. futher explain later. ] so. went home with him and chan meng. he keep walking very fast left me and chan meng behind. i am damn suay! the lift was spoiled and got to climb up to ninth floor. reached ninth floor, kena stuck outside. chan meng called, check whether i reached home, cos they noe i will kena stuck outside. i was wondering why he's not the one calling. well. yumei ask me to go over her hse but i fall asleep awhile and headed to her hse.

i msg him, halfway he dint reply. thought he would be slping alr. den i keep walking around my hse area and took cab to yumei's house. i msg him asking reached home alrr, he not yet reach home. yumei called him asking where's him, he said he on the way to my hse. BLURR. yumei told him i loitering around and next moment he called. he was quite fierce asking where am i. he told me actually he wanna give me surprise but end up i was "loitering" around. [feel happy that he so angry] so i went over my hse and find him. we were looking for places to slack, and finally, his house de playgound there. i ask him about some serious stuff, blah blah blah. around 7am went home. dint went to skool, and sleep all the way. its been long time i sleep for so long.

well. further explain~ in front of our frens, he wont show much care. but some how he treat me diff from others. the small lil things he do. hidden care? hmm. really diff, even he agree. asked him, whether he treat everyone so good? he say it depend. i ask, other den me, stil got other ppl you treated good? he says, he where got time for it. makes me feel abit happy. he dint even had enough sleep, cos we spend the night almost everyday. well. i shld stop here le. =]


-- [ im the hidden one ] --
today valentine's day~
slack my half day at home.
sadded.
1st time lonely valentine's day.
boooooo..
will i get to see him tonight?



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pingg
5:22 PM




Monday, February 12, 2007

well.. long time never blog again~ jus reached home. tired. but still wanna blog before i go bed.

where should i start from? hmm.

wednesday night- sneak out of my hse around 3 plus. LOL. bad ger uh? cos yumei came to my hse and we went downstair meet him. he tml having exam but he also come down. had our supper at the prata shop near my hse. being force to eat! LOL. went back to my block and play poker. went home around 5 plus.

thursday- went to skool as usual. late. ate at cafe one. when the time we finish, alrr left the last two lesson of the day[cos only 3 lesson]. end up, elinda, ning, shan and me went to pool room and slack. night time went to 585 find liwei and weishan. den went to k pool, yumei came. after awhile, he also came. while waiting for yumei to smoke, he snatch my slipper away. DOTS. so ps, some more in front of k pool. den suddenly he went off due to something. he tap my head before he went off. er? went home but kena stuck outside my hse. cos my MUM dun let me go home. sleep at void deck and around 3 plus, yumei came and acc me but went home 5 plus?.but anyway, thanks ger. my mum open the door at 6am.

friday- was too tired to go skool, he msged me asking where am i. i was at home sleeping. he asked wanna meet him for lunch. met him near our hse de market. after eating, he suppose to meet his fren at 4 but he stil wit me, and yumei came over to meet me. so he went off change and meet his fren, me and yumei ktv session again~ LOL. my throat was too man to sing the song i usually sing. end up, i was so tired and i fall asleep. slept around one an half hour. too rich ar? LOL. after k, meet liwei, weilong and jeremy for dinner. finished, k pool and went 585. halfway, he msged me asking where am i. den i acc him for his dinner. slack at mac awhile and went home. again! kena stuck at outside. i msg him. he called and ask why so sad, blah blah blah no link thing, end up i saw him in front of me. my phone was going to low batt and i try calling yumei. but he keep calling my phone, wanted my phone to no batt at all. and his wish granted. my phone no batt. borrow his phone, but he switch it off. DOTS. keep asking him to lend but he dun wan, and he fall asleep. until 4 plus, he woke up and he was very tired but he dun bear to leave me alone. no choice lorr. got to lend me his phone. HA! called yumei, yumei with jun xing they all. they come and fetch me and he went home. went to yumei hse sleep.

saturday- went to work. the first time when im working so many frens came to look for me. weilong and his gf, annie and qin kai, wei ying and andy. the last two person i saw really shocked me! MR. derrick and "san jiao ku". i dint even tell derrick where i work, but he managed to find it. after work, take bus home. so long and squeezy! saw alot of couples hug in the bus. SIAN. lonely me. haha. start to think lots of things again. EMO. went mac find yumei them plus new fren name b**. he did called me to be careful of this guy cos he wil try to get close with gals. feel abit happy that he say this. LOL. after that dint msg him and went home sleep. around 4 plus he msg me, good lorr, forget me liao. LOL. i tot he should be the one forgetting about me.

sunday- woke up text him back and prepare for work. he replied. so early? he was at sentosa. den around 7 pm plus, he msged.
he: later u meeting ur frens? me: think so, you? he: not sure, you wan meet me? me: u at whr, i finish work at 930. he: i at town, going back soon. me: ok, like tt i meet u at amk. after awhile, he msg me again. he: i fetch you from work. wan? LOL. den went back to amk.

at the mrt, he nearly got problem. AH BENG! hmm. the story goes. three small KIDS walking in front of us, talking about where to take the train. and he say back, ZHE BIAN LA! den the three KIDS stare at him. he also and i pull him away. the train came, LOTS AND LOTS of ppl. we squeeze in and we saw the three KIDS standing from far, pointed middle finger and other hand sign. he using his hand sign asking them to come over, and one of the KIDS did the same too. he was about to go over, but i pulled him back. i was wondering why the mrt door close so slow. lucky nothing happen.

reached amk, his frens ask him go k pool [heard that gals looking for him], but my fren at 585. so went over to find them and he find his frens. he reached there not more than half an hour, msg me saying he bored. den i disturb him say, got gals at there stil bored meh. LOL. blah blah blah. liwei and yunzhi went home, yumei, weishan and me went k pool. saw him. but nv talk. went to big s11 eat, and he called asking whether i going home? when about to go home, called him and we go home tgt.

all i can say is that, when walking home with him, is never peaceful. LOL. part of my fault also cos i keep disturb him. LOL.

should i or not?



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pingg
2:04 AM




Sunday, February 11, 2007

.sad.
.confused.
.tired.



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pingg
2:24 AM




Wednesday, February 07, 2007

sad... jus quarrel wit my mum.. haix.. she dun let me out! sob.

sad case two.. how shld i start..? should i say, fall into a "trap" that i shouldnt.. hmm.. anyone help me with it? or jus a crush only~ DUNNO! hmm.. he got a gf that have been tgt for 6 days..
ytd i met him with yumei they all, the third time i saw him.. we at first dun talk much until we start to lame with each other.. overall he quite close with me.. he is caring? cos ytd night was damn cold.. everyone was shivering, and he sometime sit beside me to "tang" the wind for me.. he even say his fren, why nv lend me the extra tee shirt for me to cover my legs.. tap my head all that.. den he went home change clothes and bring down a jacket, he dint say is for me, but end up im wearing and he only wear singlet.. ARGH! the feeling is there.. or mayb he jus very good to everyone? boooooooooooo..



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pingg
11:08 PM




Monday, February 05, 2007

ha! long time never update again le~ frens complain alrr.. LOL.. on thrusday bored.. drink~





boring~ done by me and yumei~
today had so much fun! COOL.. LOL.. went to haw par villia and labraotor park.. took alot alot of pics.. hahaha!!! pic speaks louder den wat i type.. soo there u go....
nice gate..
bring me out of this place?
walls? ceiling?

anyone?
empty..

stun 1

guai kiaS?
stun 3
stun 4

stun 5

killing snake? omg!

big HOUSEFLY!

cool~ RETRO~



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pingg
6:43 PM




Thursday, February 01, 2007

AHH.... wat the!! early in the morning so PEK CHE.. sleep whole night no peace at all.. frens smsed, called.. DOT.. is like 8 msgs and 10 miss call? omg lorr.. when i slp so early[around 9] so many ppl called.. most angry is yumei and weishan.. they called 1am keep pshyco me meet them.. cos they meeting since 8 plus and i dint go.. really tired.. den! 7am call again.. think they accidentally call[two times some more].. hung up continue slp.. 9am!! again.. wake me up EAT BREAKFAST!! i noe u two dun wanna slp but can let me slp? LOL.. my class start at 12 and i suppose can slp one more hour[and it is VERY PRECIOUS to me] but im awake now! booooooooooooo.. now having sore eyes.. swollen until open eyes also pain..keep rolling tears down.. but im not crying.. haha.. have sore eyes tis few days.. dunno what happen to my eyes.. get so itch and pain so frequently..

ytd went running druing SW lesson.. elindaBF and me were so upset.. cos our timing so LOUSY.. 3 round 8 mins.. its only 1.2km.. last time 2.4 is no kid for us.. and NOW?? sadded! next week is napfa test alrr.. gonna buck up!!

today 1st of feb.. the FEB i have been waiting for the past three months.. am i jus too afraid to face it or wat?? ytd i saw him.. he was on the way walking to the gate, peining and peiyu say byebye to him.. i was not near wit peining[quite far distance], = to he dint saw me.. so i jus keep looking at his back lorr.. wishing him turn around.. and he REALLY turn! he saw me and say byebye to me.. i was like OMG??? *faint* but only few second for the "fainting" cos we seldom contact alrr.. =]

when u feel like searching for "this person" and wish to see him, end up u saw "other ppl".. and when u feel like seeing "other ppl", "this person" appear.. its always like this.. unexpected things jus appear like that..

check my frenster.. found out new message.. but before i check the mail, HE view my profile again! haha!! i guess it.. den look thru his profile again.. and check the mail.. DDDUUUHH!!! its HIM msg me.. LOL LOL LOL.. really unexpected!!



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pingg
9:50 AM