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Thursday, May 29, 2008

我轻轻的尝一口你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔



一起长大的约定
那样清晰 打过勾的我相信




你要离开 我知道很简单
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白



这感觉 已经不对 我努力在挽回
这感觉 已经不对 我最后才了解



也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药



再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰



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pingg
11:16 PM




Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I hide the terror beneath myself.


Had a lil chat with Yumei. After that Liwei came and bought me dinner. This time round is Yumei treats. LOL. ah! I’m just totally broke la. Thanks sister!



I utterly understand.

No one fully understands how he feels except me. Whatever that he's going through now are exactly what I’ve been through. I don’t blame him. As what I said, utterly understand. At least he gave me the status. But that doesn’t mean I’m contented with what has happened. Everything happened so fast . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .



that I’ve lost.



Lose to his thoughts



him



and even myself . . . . .



as I thought he is . . .




How I wish I could just



cry out loud



and everything is okay.



But . . . . . . . . .




I need my best friend again,
TIME







I’m hiding within myself.
Cause I’m afraid.



of the truth.




It will end and continues no more.





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I don't speak
doesn't mean
I don't care.

I don't cry
doesn't mean
I'm happy.

blablabla
pardon me for the rant-ing.

OVERALL!

IT'S EASY TO LAUGH ;
HARD TO CRY.

there's never a right time to say goodbye.
but




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He just wanna have "KIT KAT!"

understand? :)

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pingg
10:42 PM





Yesterday after work,
meet up with my sisters at 585. Ha!
So long never go there slack already.
Chit-chatted and the feeling was great.
I was so broke that I don’t intend to have my dinner.

BUT!!
my sisters, Weishan treated me.
not forgetting you,
Liwei! Thanks for the bubble tea. Hehe.
And . . . Yunzhi! did the potatoes, so nice! YUMS.

Den weilong came, all got no money but we still wanna play mahjong.
LOL. Play till 2plus.


It’s super tiring can. But we had fun. LOL.
:)


thanks SISTERS!



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pingg
1:20 PM




Sunday, May 25, 2008

Saturday after work, meet up with my dear. Catch a movie with his friends and their gfs.

Made of Honor. 3* out of 5.

Saw sister at Lido. Singapore is really small. LOL. *sister, you're lucky!*

While watching the show, it makes me felt terror.
*I know his thoughts*



After movie, wanted to slack but some wanna go home so all headed home. Had a lil conversation with him and I can assure some "things". SHUTS! Remain cool and act like nothing.



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pingg
11:54 PM




Saturday, May 24, 2008

Actually wanna look for him
but he went out with his friends. = /

Wanted me to rest
ended up
I play mahjong with sisters and mum just now.
Before the game starts,
was kinda moody.
His MMS picture comfort me!
; )
LOL.

*not gonna share with you all*
HAHA!



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pingg
4:32 AM




Wednesday, May 21, 2008

First attempt to Commonwealth. HAHA!

*I shall learn to take bus and not rely on cabby.* =/


He did this for me. =]
SWEETS.







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pingg
7:26 PM




Tuesday, May 20, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. TOE WEI XIANG.
AH BUTT . . !
Last year you wanted your name to be up here.
Not forgetting this year! =D
may our bond continues till . . .
=]

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pingg
10:39 PM




Monday, May 19, 2008

HA! could sleep no more. don't know why? Maybe I scared I overslept? LOL.

Woke up in the morning, chatted with some friend at msn, got to know this two new friend which I'm not aware of who are they but they know who I am. LOL. Kinda interesting huh? Anyway, they are friendly and our topic are the same. TD!

Afternoon, get prepared and met him at Cine. Catch a movie, Accuracy Of Death. The show was kinda boring but . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

some thing happens in the cinema. MAKES ME SMILE like an idiot. =X












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pingg
11:56 PM





At night, went to MIND-cafe at Selegie (if I never spell wrongly)

Play Uno-stacko (true and dare) and Pictionary.
HAD HELL LOTS OF FUN!

AND YOU! BUTT! I won't forget you!
STUPID WINGS ALSO DON'T KNOW, GUESS THIGH!
FFFFFFF.FUNNY.

Slacked at Xin Wang. Childhood memories~
LAUGH like nobody business.



True Dare Stacko!

*Sister, don't SHOUT at me for this picture. I ONLY GOT THIS. You've yet send to me the others* HEHE!

The stupid one who guess "THIGH"



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pingg
6:29 AM




Sunday, May 18, 2008

In the afternoon, was halfway through sms-ing with my dear. Got a new message when I have not reply?
Its from HIM! CYC.

Was really really really shock to see the message. And makes me remind, it's his birthday today. I really don't know why the message came so sudden and it's on his birthday. 21st birthday. Why he sent this message on this date, his birthday, 18 of May.

=/

After two years,
He said sorry, blablabla.
I said, It's okay. Over already.

CAN YOU BELIEVE WHAT I'VE SAID TO HIM? OVER?
I think time really helps and YOU DO! Butt! =]



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Not working yesterday. Was happily got myself prepared for a date. ENDED UP??
My "wanted" outcome always. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

YES!! everything was cock up and S P O I L E D.
*nothing much to elaborate but only ANGER*

after the "supposing" pure date, looked up for xiang's group at Tanjong Pagar one of the pub. Seriously I find that, those normal pub interest me no more. TD for now! For now, I find that normal pub is not as complicated as I thought before. TD more complicated? LOL.
BUT definitely MORE FUN!

Looked up for Ryan awhile since it's near Ebar. Till now, I really don't understand what he wants. Anyway, I quit long ago.

Went to eat Dou Jiang You Tiao and home sweet home.


Turn for my 自恋 photos.
*told you I bring home the flower* LMAO!















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pingg
4:52 PM




Saturday, May 17, 2008

Tonsils sore again. Sian. Feeling very unwell. Inform my supervisor that I couldn’t go for work. She said there’s no processing staff for today and could I go to work. Extremely, EXTREMELY, EXTREMELY reluctant to go to work. Ultimately, I still went. shake head


Reached office, my supervisor told me not to handle any phone call due to my throat. LOL. got my work done by 4pm and went off. Reached amk and see doctor. Every time I seek for doctor, I felt so nervous. I do not know why too. Maybe I just don’t like to see doctor? Seek for some recommendation for my sore tonsil. Specialist would be thousand plus, and those polyclinic around few hundreds. Am still considering whether to go for the ops anot.


Then, went for a hair cut. Layered and trimmed. My hair is damn lots can?


Went home and get changed. BANGKOK Thailand disco i think.
FUN FUN FUN! *To celebrate MY BUTTY's birthday.*


I saw my brother's friend at there too. They keep offering me some drink and damn MALU things happened. LOL. James thought they were trying to make friend with me or make me drunk, HE BLAH OUT sucha funny sentence! "she is my gf" HAHAHAHA!


Explanation done. BUTT and ME were laughing like hell. LOL.

My brother's friends even "hang" flower for me. *i told them, sucha waste of money* LOL. AND GUESS WHAT? I took it home. HAHAHAHA!!!



and BUTT! I'll forever remember the things you said! NUMBER ONE ! =]



Alrights. Pictures shall do the talking.
*there are still a lot of photos with the others. these are just part of it.*













































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pingg
3:41 PM




Thursday, May 15, 2008

Meet up with Ah xiang and liwei for dinner.

As discussed, settle our dinner at Sakura. Chatted, Laugh and GOSSIP?
LOL. Two freaking days i had my dinner SO FREAKING FULL!

*LIWEI, almost every time you psycho me to have buffet with you lo!*

In the train, reminiscing those days uh?


*Jasmine Kor Liwei
no matter what, forever sister alrights?*



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pingg
11:33 PM




Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Had a very late lunch today. So, i spent my lunch time in here..

Sleeping time for me. SHIOK!


lying inside the EGG CONE!


the EGG CONE. blocked by the chair.

Had dinner with Yumei and Jingfeng at Carls Jr. Always the same feeling! SUPER DUPER FULL CAN?!!? Eating halfway, Jingfeng asked one question, makes me stun for few seconds. Really shocked. Never in my life, I have thought or even happened. "How's you and him?"



After this..
I seriously believe that..
ANYTHING could happen.
No matter what..




Yumei's new TOY! damn small CAN? Her birthday gift.


Or my hand is big? 0.O
*yumei! accept him la! don't wait liao.. don't hang up and sell!*
LOL!!


we were squeezing this in the train.
F.funny can?! LOL. spoiled the whole image.




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got to know this blog.
http://thedayhadfinallycome.blogspot.com/




*speechless* =/



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pingg
10:47 PM




Monday, May 12, 2008

ON COURSE for Service Quality.
I love the course and had so much fun.

Early in the morning, hear the most shocking thing I’ve ever heard. When we were suppose to walk around, self introducing to anyone or everyone. There’s this lady worked same dept as me but we do different things and she sat kinda far from my table. As I see her kinda familiar, so I took the initiative to intro myself. I was like, “HI, I’m Shuping, blablabla. For this kind of conversation, normally you would get a reply like, “Oh Hi! I’m blablabla.

NO! N N O O ! NO!

Her replies was, “Oh Ya! I know you! Got a lot of people wooing you right!?”

What the???! Giggle a bit to cover up my cramped face. Damn shocking to hear that. Joke of the day! I dint even hear about people saying and how she will know that? Maybe there’s some things are going “underneath” which I might not aware of it. Moreover, in the office, I seldom (close to zero) talk to people, flirt or whatever to do with communication. I only heard before that, there’s two guys in the office want to know me but they’re scared cause I don’t talk. LOL. I’m fierce! HAHA!

There’s once I wore a dress to work (kinda formal), my colleague tease and said, “Eh tonight going where HE JIU (drink)?" My supervisor heard and said, “Ya lor. Going whose wedding dinner tonight?” LOL. We two looked at each other, BLUR!

To them, I’m innocent and naive?



In office and my real life is totally upside down.



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pingg
10:18 PM




Sunday, May 11, 2008

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!
MUMMY I LOVE YOU!


Stayed at home and accompany my mum to play mahjong. =)

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pingg
11:03 PM





9th of may.

COOL. This date. If everything is fine, this would be 4th year anniversary. LOL. Some memories that flashed back make me feel like returning to the then, the carefree life. Who love complicated life? =/

Shopped with my sisters at Bugis village. Looked around and I just buy whatever without thinking much, until Yumei helped me to bargain. LOL. That was so fun! I joined in and I can see the auntie cannot tahan already. HAHA!

Then, Benny came. Yunzhi’s was super duper disagree of something! Yes sister, you know me the best. HAHA! Settle our dinner and we started to gossip. =X Finished, all went separate ways. Yumei and I joined Benny’s group. The guys are so funny and we stood there for freaking 1 hour plus just to see their lame action. Followed our earlier plan, Ebar. Drank with Fernado and he is funny la, keep making fun of yumei! *no worries, he’s a gay (our sister)*



10th of may.

Benny passed the bird nest that he brewed for 3 – 4 hours to me as I’m always having sore throat. In the train, there was totally no communication. He tried, but my replies were one word? I know I’m bad but sorry. Drank the delicious bird nest, and every scoop confirm got bird nest. 是爽的咯! =X Hehe!

At night, meet up with Benny’s group again. Planned to watch movie, What happen in Vegas. There were so much time and we slack outside The Cathay. Suddenly, Benny was emo, and he need to go back home due to some reason.

And YES! In the cinema, he sat beside me. Finally I felt so freely and chatted with him. After movie, we slacked at NAFA and somehow it started to rain. We just sat there, taking some photos and giving lame jokes.





Appreciated. =)


BIRD NEST! LOL.




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pingg
12:43 PM




Thursday, May 08, 2008

Went to Upp Thomson, one of the pub with Yumei, Benny and Siliang (new friend). Slack and drink. I really hate beer but damn freaking freezing beer 是爽的咯!

Suddenly, Benny gone missing for awhile and came back with a paper bag. He bought me chocolates. I was like? This kind of feeling has been lost long ago. HAHA! Cause nowadays guys are not romantic AT ALL! =X



*you told me how MUCH you felt for me, but I feel nothing at all.*



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pingg
11:59 PM





went to Kgarden with Yumei and Benny(new friend). Seriously I don’t like this kind of “match making” cause I’m totally not interested. BUT! I was hooked by his Iphone games. So fun! HAHA!



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pingg
1:30 AM




Monday, May 05, 2008

Due to not enough sleep and overload of work, OT till late and don’t intend to go out.

When going home, my dear hanlin called and ask to meet. Is damn damn long that I last seen him. Looked for him at his working place then slacked under my block.

Were talking about each other's stuff blablabla. And the both of us were in great pain due to some problems. We were like scolding each other.
@#$*^%@*$%

Ended up, both were reminiscing about the "messages" that kept us going.







Fuck it. I said !
I'm gonna forget it.





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pingg
11:49 PM




Sunday, May 04, 2008

Woke up quite early. Slack at home and watched dvd that I bought back.

恶作剧2吻! Part one was really nice, that’s why I'm crazy about the Part Two. Get my butt off the sofa, did some jogging at the carpark. Feeling so shiok and PAIN.

ALL BECAUSE OF ME, MYSELF ( ITCHY BACKSIDE )
4pm, I ate a koren spicy cup noodle.
5pm, I went for jogging.

How fast can the food be digested. CUM spicy.
Cecum was damn FREAKING pain. Feel like vomiting. ORBI ME!

Rested awhile and went to out for dinner with xiang’s. Ate at Ivins. Overall its not bad la, but I like the rendang more. Yums. Went back home, mahjong with mum, liwei and yumei.



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pingg
11:57 PM




Saturday, May 03, 2008

I felt so FREAKING weak.


My body was too weak to react and I had to lie on bed for the whole afternoon. Get ready and headed to East Coast Park. My dept’s BBQ. Quite fun and nice chilling out with some of my besties for the past few months.


The worlds local BANK
[ H S B C ]



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pingg
4:37 AM




Friday, May 02, 2008

After work, went to TD at goldenmile. Among all the TD I went, goldenmile's TD has more Thailand song I know and nicer. But the girls (pretty) there so so only? Geographer girls is much more prettier but not that fun. After that went to Boat Quay. Drink again. By the time we reached there, I was already half drunk. Due to too much on the rock while playing 5 10. I still remember xiang brought me to the back alley as I said I wanted to vomit. Halfway, then I saw Wilfred. I do not know when I started crying and say out everything. Thanks Wilfred, Xiang, Zhuting, Yumei, Sharon, Jingfeng and all the others that cared for me. I always tend to bottled up my feeling aftermath this is what I get.



Once is more than enough.


From then, I woke up from the dream. I will not ponder upon it and I promise to let go. Why do I still go for it when i know that there isn't an outcome? All because humans are self-seeking.



In my heart, you’re forever a ******. =)
Thanks for letting me to hate you and torturing me no more.
I do not know what changes your mind, but FINALLY! *thanks*
This is why this relationship is ON OFF for so long.
I’ve waited for this day since long ago.



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pingg
12:00 AM




Thursday, May 01, 2008

LABOUR DAY!
*yippee ya ya yippee yippee ya*



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!


Public holidays are worker’s favorite!! Went Malaysia again and do some shopping. Bought a no. of thing back. Within two days of Malaysia trip, i spend more than what I spend in Singapore. Mostly was spent on those cheap food, esp SEAFOOD.


Finally I could watch my favourite 偶像剧！
恶作剧2吻 ！！



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pingg
11:20 PM